Special days like Mother’s Day and Father’s Day are always a little strange in our household. I lost my dad over 10 years ago, so I no longer need to buy Father’s Day cards or presents (except for my kids and their dad of course). However my partner needs to remember – getting a gift and card for his dad. Mother’s Day is equally weird as while I’m busy inviting my mum around for lunch and buying her a gift and present, my partner Chris lost his mum before we even met and started dating, over 15 years ago.

A few months ago I started watching a show called “Long Island Medium“. Its a funny story really as I first saw Theresa Caputo on another show called “Next Great Baker” and thought she was mental. However her show airs right after “Judge Judy” on TLC (honestly, Chris and I are obsessed with Judge Judy) and several times, “Long Island Medium” just came on afterwards and I let it play. After that I often chose to put on her show, intrigued by her spirit encounters and genuinely moved to tears with a lot of the stories that feature on the show. While Theresa is most definitely a “crazy American” to some extent, she is the first person to really make me believe in a spirit presence, an afterlife and the ability to contact people once they’ve passed away. I’ve always been very much a skeptic but recently I’ve been wondering about contacting a medium to see if talking to my dad is possible. It’s even crossed my mind as to whether or not it’s something Chris would want to do for talking to his mum.

Realistically I don’t know if its a step I want to make or not. I miss my dad of course, but for the most part it’s not on my mind every day. I watch the stories on TV and I’m deeply touched, to the point where it makes me cry. Would being in that position myself, be too emotional? Maybe one day it’s something I’ll do, but at the moment I’m definitely on the fence about it. I would love to speak to my dad one more time, as I’m sure Chris would with his mum, but whether it’s something we’ll ever do anything about – I don’t know!

In the meantime, this weekend is Mother’s Day and I’m looking forward to it. Not only do I get to tell my mum how special she is (though I try to tell her that more than once a year), but I also get to cook lunch for her. On top of that I’ll be celebrating as a mother myself, spending the day with my two beautiful daughter’s – who one day will no doubt be mother’s themselves.